{"id":38994,"date":"2018-04-20T15:49:03","date_gmt":"2018-04-20T15:49:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/?p=38994"},"modified":"2018-04-20T15:54:28","modified_gmt":"2018-04-20T15:54:28","slug":"high-functioning-depression","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/2018\/04\/20\/high-functioning-depression\/","title":{"rendered":"‘High-Functioning’ depression"},"content":{"rendered":"

This post<\/a> was written more than 3 years ago and is still just as relevant now as it was then. Normally, I don’t really talk about my mental health, but I feel like this is one of those times when I need to. I feel like I’m swimming against the current. I do not see my depression getting better. I’m functional, barely. I am always tired. I have trouble concentrating. I feel that I am always anxious or angry and I’m not getting the help I need.<\/p>\n

I came across this article<\/a> today, and I’m going to copypasta some bits here. I originally wasn’t going to post this as a public post, but seriously, if you’re like me and are running a mental checklist when reading this article, you need to do something about it. I’m trying to.<\/p>\n

\nIf I were to ask you to picture and describe a depressed person, what would you envision?<\/p>\n

Someone having trouble getting out of bed every day? Someone who\u2019s calling into work sick because they can\u2019t leave the house? Someone who\u2019s isolated from friends and possibly sleeping 10 or 12 hours a day? Someone who can\u2019t stop crying and who\u2019s feeling hopeless?<\/p>\n

Or would you envision a popular, college-educated professional living it up in the big city with a great job, a good group of friends and a long list of accolades to his name, but who wakes up each morning with a gripping sense of anxiety and an internalized pressure to continue to be \u201cperfect\u201d and \u201ckeep it all together?\u201d<\/p>\n

And would you picture that smiling, competent, friendly coworker of yours who always seems to be getting All The Things done but who secretly, inwardly feels like he\u2019s a complete failure and fears time is flying by and he\u2019s wasting it every day?<\/p>\n

Let\u2019s face it: you\u2019re probably not going to picture these folks. And yet each of them could be a perfect example of someone dealing with what\u2019s come to be known as \u201chigh-functioning depression.\u201d<\/p>\n

While high-functioning depression doesn\u2019t look like the stereotype of depression most of us hold in our heads, this diagnosis nevertheless carries significant risks if left untreated. But the uniquely tricky thing about high-functioning depression is that it\u2019s hard to spot precisely because the people dealing with it look, from the outside, like they\u2019re holding it all together.<\/p>\n

In my opinion as a psychotherapist, high-functioning depression is a pop psychology term for what\u2019s clinically known as dysthymia.<\/p>\n

Dysthymia, according to the \u201cDiagnostic And Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders 5th Edition\u201d (DSM 5), is a mental health disorder characterized by:<\/p>\n

\u201cDepressed mood for most of the day, for more days than not, as indicated by either subjective account or observation by others, for at least two years,\u201d and includes the presence of two or more of the following symptoms, \u201cPoor appetite or overeating; insomnia or hypersomnia; low energy or fatigue; low self-esteem; poor concentration or difficulty making decisions; feelings of hopelessness.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

And yet, while these symptoms may look diagnostically similar to the symptoms we think of when we envision major depressive disorder (MDD), individuals dealing with dysthymia may not have the same severe levels of impaired biological and mental functioning that can make major depression easier and more obvious to spot.<\/p>\n

In other words, someone struggling with dysthymia may still be able to get up and go to their demanding, prestigious job, be in a romantic relationship, post the believable smiley photos on Instagram, regularly get together with their friends for happy hour and generally handle all the logistical adulting stuff of their life \u2014 passing for someone who doesn\u2019t \u201clook depressed.\u201d<\/p>\n

But inwardly, this same person may be gripped with a challenging set of symptoms invisible to those of us who love and know them.<\/p>\n

Symptoms that may greatly diminish their overall quality of life, their career, their relationships, and bloom into more challenging mental health concerns if left untreated.<\/p>\n

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11 Real-Life Ways High-Functioning Depression Can Manifest<\/h2>\n

Above, I provided you with what the DSM-5\u2019s clinically indicative dysthymic symptoms. Now let\u2019s talk, in layman\u2019s terms, about 11 ways that some of these symptoms may manifest in your real life.<\/p>\n

1. Difficulty experiencing joy.<\/strong> [RC: Check!]<\/p>\n

With high-functioning depression, the things that used to bring you pleasure don\u2019t bring you joy anymore. They may feel like burdens or events you want to avoid because it feels like more of an effort than a support.<\/p>\n

2. Relentless criticality \u2014 of self and others.<\/strong> [RC: Check!]<\/p>\n

You may have a relentless and invasive internal narrative that\u2019s critical of yourself, of others and of the world in general. You think you\u2019re a failure, you think your boss is an idiot, your partner\u2019s the most irritating person to have ever lived, and life\u2019s just one big slog. This chronically negative thought pattern may feel like something you just can\u2019t turn off.<\/p>\n

3. Constant self-doubt.<\/strong> [RC: Check!]<\/p>\n

You may constantly doubt whether or not you\u2019re on the right career path, whether you\u2019re in the right relationship, doubt what you\u2019re doing with your life and if you can even handle being an adult. This pattern of constant self-doubt may be situational or pervasive but it\u2019s something that feels like you just can\u2019t get over.<\/p>\n

4. Diminished energy.<\/strong> [RC: Check!]<\/p>\n

If it feels like getting through each day is like walking up a mountain with a backpack of rocks, if you feel like you barely have the mental, emotional and physical energy to handle your life anymore, if your overall energy levels are greatly diminished, this could be a sign of high-functioning depression.<\/p>\n

5. Irritability or excessive anger.<\/strong> [RC: Check!]<\/p>\n

If you find yourself blowing up over small things \u2014 your partner says something wrong, your co-worker messed up a project, your kid just broke your favorite coffee mug, if you find yourself exploding in a way that feels disproportionate to the event, if irritability and excessive anger are something you\u2019re wrestling with, this may be a sign.<\/p>\n

6. Small things feel like huge things.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Similarly, if you find yourself feeling overwhelmed or greatly stressed by an event that happens that maybe wouldn\u2019t have felt like such a huge deal in the past (a friend cancels weekend plans, the grocery bags break when you\u2019re carrying them in, your darn trackpad stops working because you spilled some coffee on it) and it feels like the End Of The World instead of the annoyance that it is \u2014 if you find your stress responses disproportionate to the event itself, this may well be a sign of high-functioning depression.<\/p>\n

7. Feelings of guilt and worry over the past and the future.<\/strong><\/p>\n

You worry that you chose the wrong career in college, you question whether you\u2019re in the right grad school program, you worry about paying off all those student loans, you worry that you married the wrong partner, you worry about who\u2019s going to care for your folks when they get older, etc. We all have these worries from time to time, but if feelings of guilt and worry over your past and future feel pervasive and dominant, this may be more than \u201cnormal\u201d worry.<\/p>\n

8. Relying on your coping strategies more and more.<\/strong> [RC: Fuck yes! Hello phone, my old friend…. Check!!]<\/p>\n

If you find yourself needing extensive zone-out time after work and on the weekends, turning towards your coping mechanisms more often than not \u2014 such as substances or behaviors like using alcohol, drugs, excessive gaming, constant Netflix, etc. \u2014 all in an effort to escape your life, this could speak to underlying depression.<\/p>\n

9. Generalized sadness.<\/strong> [RC: Oh yes, Check!]<\/p>\n

If you find yourself feeling a generalized sense of sadness you can\u2019t seem to pinpoint the cause of, if you drop your mask and armors of smiling competency when you close your door behind you, if you feel a subtle sense of hopelessness, this could speak to high-functioning depression.<\/p>\n

10. Seeking perfection.<\/strong><\/p>\n

This one\u2019s a tough one. In a way our society condones perfectionism \u2014 getting good grades, getting into the Ivies, landing that amazing tech job, striving, striving, striving. But perfectionism has a shadow side where striving turns into unrealistic demands of yourself and psychologically beating yourself up when you fall short of the bar you set for yourself. If you find yourself doing this and it\u2019s causing you distress, be curious about whether this a sign of high-functioning depression.<\/p>\n

11. Inability to rest and slow down.<\/strong><\/p>\n

If you need to clean up, tidy and organize the house after you arrive home from an exhausting day of work before you even consider letting yourself rest, if you find yourself uncomfortable with slowness, stillness and fallow periods of time because of the uncomfortable thoughts and feelings you come into contact with when you do actually slow down, this could be a sign of high-functioning depression.<\/p><\/div>\n

Mental health struggles come in all shapes and sizes but, as we undo the stigmatization and globalization of mental health scripted over these past few decades, most of us likely still have an unconscious image in our heads of what a depressed person looks like. And while this internalized image of someone who can\u2019t get out of bed, who can\u2019t hold down a job, and who has constant suicidal ideations may be one form of depression, it doesn\u2019t mean that someone who sees themselves in the list above or in the clinical descriptor of dysthymia isn\u2019t also dealing with depression.<\/p>\n

But these folks may not be willing to see themselves as depressed. And this can be a big problem. Because, in my clinical opinion, there\u2019s a unique set of risks to being someone with high-functioning depression.<\/p>\n

First, because you\u2019re still \u201cholding it all together\u201d it may make it harder for both you and others to spot the very real mental and emotional strain you may be under because you pass. You fly under the radar. You and those around you doubt the seriousness of what you may internally wrestle with because, after all, your life still looks pretty great from the outside, right?<\/p>\n

Second, as someone who is high-functioning, you may grow up believing that with enough effort and willpower, you can achieve, gain or fix anything that life throws at you. Not so with high-functioning depression.<\/p>\n

High-functioning depression isn\u2019t just a bad attitude, and you can\u2019t just \u201cwill your way\u201d out of it. High-functioning depression is a biological and psychological disorder that requires adequate and clinically appropriate treatment. Arguably, the more you push and \u201cwill yourself out of it\u201d instead of seeking proper support, the worse your symptoms may get.<\/p>\n

For example, if left untreated, high-functioning depression, or dysthymia, can potentially bloom into major depression or major depressive episodes where your biological and psychological functioning is more severely impaired.<\/p>\n

Or, perhaps in your attempts to deal with your high-functioning depression on your own, comorbid disorders – such as eating disorders or substance use disorders – can develop from your attempts to manage your intolerable feeling states.<\/p>\n

Bottom line: Dysthymia, or high-functioning depression, requires adequate clinical treatment as much as the most stereotyped version of major depression does. And the good news is that with proper clinical treatment, dysthymia can be managed.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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