{"id":55212,"date":"2026-05-11T08:45:38","date_gmt":"2026-05-11T08:45:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/?p=55212"},"modified":"2026-05-11T08:45:38","modified_gmt":"2026-05-11T08:45:38","slug":"everythings-not-lost","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/2026\/05\/11\/everythings-not-lost\/","title":{"rendered":"Everything&#8217;s not lost"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>The times, they are a changing.<\/p>\n<p>From yesterday to today, nothing has physically changed. No decision has been made. Things are pretty much as they were 24-48h ago. Except now I have an immense feeling of dread and despair. I&#8217;m unconsciously humming coldplay. I&#8217;m thinking black thoughts. This is completely irrational behaviour and I know this. It&#8217;s not a normal response. It&#8217;s probably triggered by similar past events, but it doesn&#8217;t make it less real or easier to deal with.<\/p>\n<p>I sure picked a fucking great time to quit smoking.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The times, they are a changing. From yesterday to today, nothing has physically changed. No decision has been made. Things are pretty much as they were 24-48h ago. Except now I have an immense feeling of dread and despair. I&#8217;m unconsciously humming coldplay. I&#8217;m thinking black thoughts. This is completely irrational behaviour and I know&#8230;<\/p>\n<p class=\"more-link-wrap\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/2026\/05\/11\/everythings-not-lost\/\" class=\"more-link\">Read More<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &ldquo;Everything&#8217;s not lost&rdquo;<\/span> &raquo;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[221,151,88],"class_list":["post-55212","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-family","tag-slice-of-life","tag-stress"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p3u9vK-emw","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/55212","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=55212"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/55212\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":55214,"href":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/55212\/revisions\/55214"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=55212"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=55212"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.flubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=55212"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}