Is there anybody out there?

I feel disconnected. I've been working, eating and sleeping for the past 3 weeks. I haven't done anything else. I haven't really interacted with friends for more than just a quick brunch one weekend morning. Even my usual chat buddies are offline, for various reasons. Even though I'm ok with solitude most of the time, I really need to go out among the living these days. I'll be really happy when this project is over.

Current mood: anxious.
Current music: Pink Floyd, the Wall

Hooah. I've just logged 55 hours of overtime in the last 2 weeks. Now granted, the time I put in I get to take back as vacation time, but I still don't really know when exactly I'll be able to take a vacation... Eh, that's why they pay me the big bucks (HA!). Seriously, the project is doomed to be late, but it'll get done. I just pity the guy who's going to have to maintain this mess. The specs are vague, at best, and the technical documentation is, in a word, inexistant. But that's a bridge that'll be crossed when the powers that be get to it. At least, the people I work with are a great bunch.

On a brighter note, my morale is improving a lot these days. The weather is way nicer, which makes sleeping easier. The fact that I'm also in daily communication with a lovely person of the opposite gender helps. I'm curious to see how things will play out, but I'm content to wait and see.

Current mood: tired, but it's a good tired, of a job well done.
Current music: Frank Sinatra, Strangers in the night (do-be-do-be-dooooo)

Real life is driving me crazy. Still in keeping with my tendancy to fall for women in interesting situations, I've recently met someone who has the potential to be a very good friend, and hopefully a lot more. She's intelligent, funny, and very cute. She's also currently attached, which, of course, is a bit of a bother... Work is driving me nuts. The powers that be have just realized that the schedule they have is currently hopeless and everybody will be doing overtime for the next month. Sweeeeeeeeeeeet. I so need a vacation I can't even think straight. I need to unwind. I'm hung so tight right now that I'm afraid something's going to snap if I don't do anything about it. I'm grumpy and moody and generally not my usual happy-go-lucky self, and that pisses me off to no end.

Current mood: tired, bone-deep tired.
Current music: Fucking hostile, Pantera

I just came back from a dinner soiree with two very good friends, that didn't know each other, but really seemed to hit it off. That's always cool when the old "the friend of my friend is my friend" rule seems to work. The food was excellent and the conversation was wickedly amusing. Oh, and little bird, if you're reading this, I have to tell you that you looked quite lovely tonight. You really should wear your hair down more often - you're devastating with it. I don't know when I last told you this, but it's probably not recently enough. You're a beautiful woman, and it's a shame that you have to leave now, when I just realize that. And if you keep bugging me, I might just tell you what's more extreme than whips, chains and egg beaters.

Current mood: mostly content, but a bit wistful.
Current music: Stabat Mater, by Vivaldi

My mood improved today. Had a good day at the office. I'm currently working on a fairly important project, the company where I consult at has a project to develop a multi-tier client-server app to mine a genetic mutation database. I'm currently working in the design phase of the database, and it's going well. I've also been told by my immediate boss that upper management is quite happy with my work, which is always a good thing to hear.

I went to see Tomb Raider 2 last night with a friend. I wasn't expecting much, and I was still disappointed. I freely admit it, I went to see Angelina Jolie's ass, and even that couldn't keep my brain from hurting from the overall badness of the movie.

My birthday is coming up - August 7 - and my folks have asked me what I want for my b'day gift. There are 2 things that I really want: a new sketching pad and a special CD that can only be sent by a very special friend. One I can't ask for because it's just way too expensive, the other, they can't give. So I have no real idea what to ask, cause I don't really need anything. In a sense, I'm already quite fortunate, so I think I'll shut up now :)

Current mood: chillin'
Current music: oldschool Rush and Eric Clapton

I'm feeling bleh today. Compounded periods of lack of sleep and a bit of emotional turmoil are taking their toll. Seems that I have this knack for falling for people that are unattainable. Like a grad student who's moving across the country and currently has a boyfriend, or like the fiery redhead who's currently living across the continental seaboard, in a different country. Sigh... I hate the single scene. Dating sucks, and I miss waking up next to a warm body.

Current mood: Depressed and horny
Current music: 3 doors down - love me when I'm gone and way too many tunes that aren't good for my current state of mind