What to say.
It's been a rough couple of days. It started with a phone call with my mom, where she tells me that she's worried about me, as every time she calls, I'm not feeling well and I never seem happy. How do you answer to that? It wasn't a pleasant phone call, especially when you're at the office and there's no walls between you and your coworkers. I'll admit that I've been feeling less than stellar these past few weeks, but it's a mix of money woes, roommate hassles, job concerns and well, my love life sucks. As in, I have none.
Now I know that some of you will call me princess or pobrecita (as you've already done), but what can I say? I feel like this right now. I'm trying to “suck it up”, it's just not working.
I had fun on friday night, as I went to see the Fluff Girls burlesque show at Cafe Campus with Hacker_grrl and some of her friends. It was an interesting evening, and the eye candy was nice, but I was glad to get home at the end. My coat stinks of cigarette smoke.
So today is valentines day. Normally, I wouldn't give a shit. This year though, it's hitting hard. I spoke to a few people today on MSN. It seems I'm the only one not getting it on this weekend. Now I know that sounds really petty, but damn, It's not helping morale when everybody around you is talking about their sex life. The worse one was a girl I'm flirting with on LL, who doesn't have a date this morning and is mopey about it the first time we talk this morning, has a date planned for tonight the next time I talk to her, and is telling me she got laid the third time I talk to her tonight. That one was harsh.
So I think I'm going to cut this one off short now. I hate feeling like this. Self-pity is basically self-destructive, so I'll do my damndest to get out of this funk.