The times, they are a changing.
From yesterday to today, nothing has physically changed. No decision has been made. Things are pretty much as they were 24-48h ago. Except now I have an immense feeling of dread and despair. I’m unconsciously humming coldplay. I’m thinking black thoughts. This is completely irrational behaviour and I know this. It’s not a normal response. It’s probably triggered by similar past events, but it doesn’t make it less real or easier to deal with.
I sure picked a fucking great time to quit smoking.